Icing on the Cake
2016 has been an interesting year for us all. Many highs and lows for me. I would say that my trip home for a few days was icing on the cake. If I were to sum it up in one picture, it would be this:
Let me explain the context of this. My sisters and I have a strained relationship. Partly because I am a big brother with a chip on my shoulder, and partly because they don’t seem to understand the responsibilities that come with adulthood. In a nutshell, some immediate family members feel I am a spoiled, self-centered asshole. That doesn’t really get to me. I could care less what people think of me. What gets to me is the fact that I am going home to spend time with my family, and I am always met with such disrespect from my own kin. I really wish that I was fortunate to come home to a loving family that gathers around the living room and talks about what they are grateful for this year. Needless to say, that is not my life. Instead of posting a cute family photo with some heartfelt message of solace, I posted that picture with the caption:
There are many instances in our lives where resistance is unavoidable. Resistance can be an enlightening and empowering even if it doesn't feel so at the time. A perception of adversity within a given context. I suppose that is the beauty of life. As you embark on the lonely journey of achieving your dream, things will happen. Things will always happen. Some things won't phase you, and others will sting like venom corrupting the blood that flows through your veins. In these situations, you are forced to make a decision: let the venom take control, or amputate the corrupted area. Surviving is selfish.
That is ultimate what I realized about my situation. I have a lot of things I need to worry about, and the last thing I need is negativity from those closest to me.
Unfortunately, some people were not happy about what I did. Yeah, I did lay out family business, but I withheld names, and I said I was going to post it before I did. I have gone back and forth about taking it down because I don’t want to sit here and perpetuate the dysfunction within black families, but this is my life. Ultimately, I want to my life to be an example of overcoming adversity to achieve anything. Looking at this situation, I see it as an opportunity for people to see the dysfunction in my life and see the success and the work I create in the midst of it. Many of the things I do and say are because of the things I see and deal with on a regular basis. More importantly, I am tired of feeling like I am walking on eggshells every time I continue this journey. When I look back at this moment, I want to be able to look at it as a defining moment where I had chosen between the path of my career and the path of repairing the relationships of my family. I feel like this is a situation many people like me are forced to confront. As I progress, I hope that other black kids can see that their family and friends don’t have to be an anchor. They can do anything they set their minds to regardless of their situation. If I can make cartoons and comics for kids despite the blatant disrespect my family gives me, they can too.
Create and Conquer!